实习医生格蕾第一季

　　我从来不是幽默的女生　　不喜欢突然的一场雨　　明知道你正伤心　　却又默默离去　　明知道下雨天的你　　需要亲密的语气　　说今天就快过去　　雨会停　心将平静　　我从来不是幽默的女生　　只好为你淋雨　　我从来不是幽默的女生　　不适合这种情景　　我从来不是幽默的女生　　真不幸　坏了天气　　　　　　　　　　　——陈珊妮《我从来不是幽默的女生》寒假前因为好友Dean的推荐而开始看《Grey's Anatomy》，不紧不慢地看了一个寒假，倒也就这样追到了第三季。

可以说，在昨天之前——或者更确切点，在我和Pheobe聊完天后看了第三季第13集以前——《GA》里我最喜欢的女孩虽然不能确定是谁，但一定不会是Christina Yang。

曾经带着几分偏见地认为：怎么可能会有人喜欢上Christina Yang这样的女孩呢？

她不美丽、不温柔、固执、冷漠、而且还有着带几分功利的进取心。

看着她每天一大早来到医院只为抢到好的病人，看着她想尽一切方法就为能上手术台，看着她不修边幅一心工作，觉得这个女孩除了优秀，似乎再也找不到一点讨人喜欢的地方了。

甚至，就连她与主治医生Burke的相恋，也让我觉得这只是她想要获得手术机会的一个手段而已。

到了第二季，一位身体中有炸弹的病人使整个医院都陷入了恐慌，Geroge和Izzie转移到了医院的另外一栋楼，而Christina和Grey却都留在病人所在的楼层。

当时，Geroge和Izzie坐在墙角谈论着正陷入危险的那两位朋友，Izzie评论她们说：“因为她们都是行动派，而我们却大多时候在旁观。

”Christina的勇气让我对她有了改观。

无论她留下的原因究竟是担心Burke，还是仅仅想要获得一个难得的手术机会，但她的确是一个毫无疑问的行动派。

当医院出现身体释放不明毒气的女病人时，Sloan医生拒绝进入手术室处理病人，而Christina却立刻举起手对主任说：“我可以在游泳池不呼吸游三个来回。

”于是渐渐觉得，这样一个有着几分傻气的行动派，似乎也不至于那么让人厌恶吧。

直到Burke意外中弹，Christina却退缩时，我才终于发现，这个女孩并不像自己表现的那样坚强。

原来，这个优秀得近乎冷酷的女孩，也终究会有软弱的一面。

而这样的软弱，竟让我对她有了莫名的好感。

Christina的确不是一个善于讨人喜欢的女孩，她与Burke斗气时小孩子般互不相让，她对Burke的母亲骄傲地报出自己的学历，她为了好的手术机会不顾一切……那样一个优秀且骄傲的女孩，却也会逃跑般离开Burke的手术台，也会在听到Burke说“marry me”时忍不住激动流泪。

觉得这样的她，才是在那个躲在为了保护自己而假装坚强冷漠的外壳里的那个真实可爱的Christina Yang。

记得在女性文学课上，老师曾经谈到过文学作品中的女性形象：在大多数文学作品中，女性形象被简单地分成了两类——美丽温柔的天使形象与丑陋邪恶的恶魔形象。

在这种分类的无形影响下，女孩们从小就被教导着要做天使。

她们会收到芭比娃娃、毛绒熊之类的礼物，然后每天自言自语般地在教导自己娃娃的同时也教导自己，说：要乖、要微笑、要顺从……在我还足够年轻、可以拿年龄作为炫耀的资本的时候，很喜欢《小王子》中的小狐狸，并因为小王子最终的选择而感到伤心。

可之后才渐渐明白，其实小玫瑰这样的女孩注定了比较容易得到幸福。

作者总是很喜欢通过文学作品来说话，而《小王子》的结局，是否可以理解为圣艾修伯里想要对女孩们说：聪明的女孩只适合做知己，而能陪伴一生的女孩不用太有思想，能够笑容甜美、用细软的声音说话就好。

也许正是这样，他才会选择文章中小玫瑰的原型——那个因为《小王子》没有献给自己而任性出走的康素罗。

那么多的故事，那么多的王子最后爱上的都是公主，而那么多的公主无一不是温柔美丽的。

也许，温柔美丽就足够了吧，麻烦到隔着十多层羽绒垫也容不下床上的一颗豌豆也完全没有关系，傻到除了等待王子的吻来拯救自己外什么都不会做也根本不是问题——温柔、美丽，这就是与王子过上幸福生活的资格。

印象中唯一一个能称得上拥有智慧的公主图兰朵，也只是被人们定义成为了一个因为有着阴暗的童年从而仇恨男人、报复社会的心理畸形的小姑娘而已。

更不厚道的是，作者还要落井下石地给她安排了一个悲惨的结局，似乎是在坏笑着告诉那些蠢蠢欲动的女孩们，除了温良恭俭让之外，其他一切的优秀形容词都是为男人造的，想要把它们放在女人身上是要不得的。

难怪伍尔夫会感叹：“有谁能计算得出，一个诗人的灵魂被禁锢在女人的身体里时，会有多大的悲愤。

”可是，现实中的女孩实在无法被如此简单而不负责任地分成天使和恶魔两大阵营。

就像Chritina Yang这样的女孩，虽然算不上恶魔，但也实在做不了天使。

即使明知道小玫瑰比较容易得到幸福，但毕竟不是每个女孩都做得了小玫瑰。

有些女孩，她们不知道怎么给人安慰，学不会如何讨人欢心，不甘心做别人光芒背后面容模糊的小女人，更演不来那些山盟海誓、缠绵悱恻的爱情肥皂剧……于是，有时候也会忍不住想，这些偏执倔强的女生们，还真是挺让人扫兴的吧。

好在看到Christina Yang的身边有了愿意将心放在她手上的Preston Burke，不然这些女孩，是不是该手拉手站出来向这个世界鞠躬道歉，说：“真不幸，坏了天气。

”

很仔细很小心翼翼的看完S4结局，充满希望的看下去，直到最后的KISS带来本集的大高潮。

What dose the KISS going to be that would make u lean to ur tele.Here we got it！

最先的来自callie&hahn。

I want to tell you……callie没有继续她的话，而是用一个KISS说明了自己的态度。

不要去在意别人的目光，勇敢的面对自己的感情，I think it's better to be honest.callie这么对水泥病人的女孩说，我想当她说出那番话的那一刻，自己也明白了许多。

mark还是很可爱，he think he is grown，^_^ 这两个小时里还真觉得他像个小孩，不断用hahn来挑逗callie，鼓励callie面对真爱。

这三个人的牵连啊！

因为一分而没有通过考试，我想每个人都感同身受吧。

G的表现很真实，那种沮丧以及得到又一次机会时的满怀信心的雀跃，而lexie一如既往的坦诚和活力。

The KISS between G&Lexie.这甚至不能算是一个吻，但是L，我们看到她的留恋，她的一刹那的呆滞，伸手抚摸自己的唇畔。

她在回味！

也许，那是S5新的故事。

Chief is back home. I'm not asking u, I'm telling U!一直觉得CHIEF在剧中很多时候处在被“压迫”状态，被老婆抛弃，总有不同的 attending，resident和interns时不时的挑战他的权威，很有喜剧元素，但是魄力不足。

但是喜欢极了今天最后他对ADALE的那番话，MAN!而显然ADALE也重新被自己的丈夫感动，that KISS,如此的情不自禁那样的充满喜悦！

　其实对EVA是没有偏见的，但是今天那么欢喜的一集里，那是唯一让我觉得暗淡的场景。

不断的自欺欺人。

而ALEX也终于在IZZ的不懈努力坚持eva's sick的情况下爆发。

第一次，他对他人说了那么多自己的家庭，他的过去。

我想IZZ是能理解的，雷同的生活背景，所以她不放弃帮助ALEX，在ALEX忍无可忍大骂stupid bitch后仍旧坚持的让alex看清真相。

他俩的KISS让我心酸。

alex几乎是流着泪恳求着izz的抚慰。

izz的犹豫，却在最后alex的眼神中瓦解。

那是怎么样一个场景！

把自己深深埋藏起来的alex在izz面前毫不掩饰自己的情绪，please……他恳求izz 的抚慰，哪怕是one night，当时他的心里该有多痛苦！

（之前剧透看到他俩的吻，以为他们终要back 2gether，但是看了这集，我只是觉得，他们真的是最能够互相帮助，互相理解的人，无所谓是否能再次成为恋人了。

得友如此！

）　mere&dere,everything about the candle house.其实直到最后之前，他俩都是犹豫不决的，12个失败的病例，甚至让一向自信的dere都觉得scared。

mere和chief的谈话是一个转机（虽然我觉得那个转变太戏剧性），让她发现自己的母亲其实不想死，她只是太想得到richard的爱。

我觉得这件事情像极了mere对yang的婚礼抱有的期待那样。

她一直想努力的生活下去，努力去的争取，但是自小她的身边有太多的dark&twist，她需要找到让她勇敢继续下去的榜样。

yang失败的婚礼让她对dere更加的游疑，但是她母亲这件事情让她看到了希望。

ellis也争取过，只是她用错了方法，她最后放弃了争取。

而后，更大的惊喜，脑瘤的少女清醒了！

就在那一刻，她和dere仿佛都下定决心。

相互的找寻那么久，真是再美不过的相遇。

通过dere的视线，mere出现在一片蜡烛中，正不停的拨弄手机，踱步，懊恼的念念有词。

当她看到dere，太动情的表现：she yelled！

那么叫人始料不及却感人。

where have u being, i v been waitting and waitting for u. and i did this stuip,embarrassing,humiliating,...thing.and i just wantto tell u,this over here,is our kechien,this s our living room,and over there,that's the room our kids could play.i had this whole thing about that i will going to build our house,but i wont going to bulid the house because i m a surgeon.and now i am here feeling like a lay mass loser……而后，dere也向大家展示了他的决心（大段言论，实在懒得再做听写工作了）。

最后，the KISS！

如此的水到渠成，让我忍不住的欢呼出声。

他们的美好生活，建立在那么浪漫的烛光之上！

不得不承认dere最后go to find rose让人觉得遗憾，虽然那是为了他们的将来，但是我还是有点小担心啊。

S4在那一刻戛然而止，what going to happen @ S5?似乎忘了一个，或者说很多的KISS，关于这集的病人。

这里涉及太多的专业术语，没怎么看懂，但是那对脑瘤病人的：I'm not finished yet,i'm not finished loving you.还有水泥小伙子和小姑娘的the whole life KISS，无论是对剧情的意义还是其感情本身都是巨大的。

The KISS thing，有人痛苦的KISS，有人MAN的KISS，有人勇敢的KISS，有人希望的KISS，有人try to KISS，有人can't help to KISS,and they are all full of love！

最后还有yang，the lonely guy，我们只能期待S5，hope her a better life。

我怎么都忘不了grey对Derek郑重其事地这样说.直到现在,她的神情,口吻,声音,都不停回荡在我脑海里,像一部自动播放机,反复而强烈.有一点哀怨,多一点坚定,有一点撒娇,多一点坚持.坚持.是的.在这里我想说的是,对于每天第一个迎接我们在真实世界苏醒过来的太阳,对于偶尔一场来去无意地霜降,对于繁华世界瞬息万变的人们,对于纷繁复杂需要面对的现实,对于更多不由自主的选择与被选择...我们能不能也大声地,深情地说一句:choose me! pick me! love me! 呢?总有人在说,生活总是要继续的.诚然如此,但我们能不能不要半推半就的生活?我不想在经历了这样一些挫折之后跟自己说我是不行的,原来我这么糟糕.我不想在经历一些失去之后跟自己说这是注定的,不是你的就不是你的.我不想在每天醒来之后不知道自己今天应该做些什么,不知道哪些是我真的愿意去做的.我不想在每天睡觉之前对于明天是没有任何期待的,甚至都没有一件事能够让我醒来后从床上利索地下来开始行动的....我通通不想...因为我要好好生活.要让温暖的太阳选择我,要让美好的运气选择我,要让胜利的快乐选择我,要让相聚的幸福选择我,要让旅行的喜悦选择我...要让我的每一天都值得.去期待,去到达,去完成.假如我还有80年的生命..80年就是960月..就是29200天...接下来,我要好好爱我的每一个1/29200.我要对你说:I love you and i choose you.Please,pick me and love me.

The best of this soap opera is voiceover in each episode. It intrigues me to scribble down every sentence of voiceover when watching it. It is food for thought. I like this way to say something about life, love, friend, job, responsibility, loneliness and so on in this series. It make me contemplating what has happened in my life.Attached is what I record, share with "同好":Season1 Episode 1: A hard Day’s nightThe game. They say either a person has what it takes to play, or they don't.There comes a moment when it's more than just a game. And you either take that step forward, or turn around and walk away.E5: “shake your groove thing”Remember when you were a kid and your biggest worry was, like, if you'd get a bike for your birthday, or if you get to eat cookies for breakfast. Being an adult? Totally overrated. I mean, seriously, don't be fooled by all the hot shoes and the great sex and the no parents anywhere telling you to do. Adulthood is responsibility. Responsibility, it really does suck. Really, really sucks. Adults have to be places and do things and earn a living and pay the rent. Kinda makes bikes and cookies look really really good, doesn't it?The scariest part about responsibility: when you screw up and let it slip right through your fingers.Unfortunately, once you get past the age of braces and training bras, responsibility doesn't go away.It can't be avoided. Either someone makes us face it, or we suffer the consequences. And still, adulthood has its perks. E6 “ If tomorrow never comes”A couple hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. "Never leave that till tomorrow," he said, "which you can do today." This is the man who discovered electricity. You'd think more of us would listen to what he had to say. I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of pain, fear of rejection. Sometimes, the fear is just of making a decision. Because, what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? Whatever it is we're afraid of, one thing holds true. That, by the time the pain of not doing a thing gets worse than the fear of doing it, it can feel like we're carrying around a giant tumor. And you thought I was speaking metaphorically.The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we haven't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still, sometime we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering. That waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst, most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying.E07 “ The self destruct button”I mean, if life's so hard already, why do we bring more trouble down on ourselves? What's up with the need to hit the self-destruct button? Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know... ...maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? "Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer?" "Because it feels so good when I stop."E08 “Save me”You know how when you were a kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be. White dress, Prince Charming, Who'd carry you away to a castle on a hill. You'd lie in bed at night and close your eyes, and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close, you could taste them. But eventually, you grow up. One day you open your eyes, and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely. Cause almost everyone still has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they'll open their eyes and it will all come true.E09 “who’s zooming who”Secrets can't hide in science. Medicine has a way of exposing the lies. Within the walls of the hospital, the truth is stripped bare. How we keep our secrets outside the hospital...Well, that's a little different. One thing is certain. Whatever it is we're trying to hide, we're never ready for that moment when the truth gets naked. That's the problem with secrets. Like misery, they love company. They pile up and up until they take over everything. Until you don't have room for anything else. Until you're so full of secrets, you feel like you're going to burst.The thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free.Whether good or bad, at least they're out in the open, like it or not. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is even when you think you're in control... ...you're not.Season 2E1 “Raindrops keep falling on my head”To be a good surgeon, you have to think like a surgeon. Emotions are messy. Tuck them neatly away and step into a clean, sterile room where the procedure is simple. Cut, suture and close. But sometimes, you're faced with a cut that won't heal. A cut that rips it's stitches wide open.The say practice makes perfect. Theory is, the more you think like a surgeon, the more you become one. The better you get at remaining neutral, clinical. Cut, suture, close. And the harder it becomes to turn it off? to stop thinking like a surgeon. And remember what it means to think like a human being.E2 “Enough is enough (no more tears)”I have an aunt who, whenever she poured anything for you, would say, "Say when." My aunt would say, "Say when," and of course we never did. We don't say "when" because there's something about the possibility of more. More tequila. More love. More anything. More is better.There's something to be said about a glass half full. About knowing when to say when. I think it's a floating line. A barometer of need and desire. It's entirely up to the individual. And depends on what's being poured. Sometimes all we want is a taste. Other times, there's no such thing as enough. The glass is bottomless. And all we want is more.E3 “Make me lose control”Surgeons are control freaks. With a scalpel in your hand, you feel unstoppable. There's no fear, there's no pain. You're 10 feet tall and bullet proof. And then you leave the O.R. And all that perfection. All that beautiful control just falls to crap.No one likes to lose control but as a surgeon there's nothing worse. It's a sign of weakness. Of not being up to the task. And still there are times when it just gets away from you. When the world stops spinning. And you realize that your shiny little scalpel isn't gonna save you. No matter how hard you fight it. You fall. And its scary as hell. Except there's an upside to free falling. It's the chance you give your friends to catch you.E4” deny, deny, deny”The key to surviving a surgical internship is denial. We deny that we're tired, we deny that we're scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed, and most importantly, we deny that we're in denial. We only see what we wanna see and believe what we want to believe. And it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while, the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth, right in front of our faces.Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the damn bursts all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired. We are scared. Denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later, we have to put aside our denial ... and face the world head on gun's blazing. Denial. It's not just a river in Egypt. It's a freaking ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?E5 “Bring the pain”Pain comes in all forms. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain. The normal pains we live with every day. Then there's the kind of pain you can't ignore. A level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else. Makes the rest of the world fade away. Until all we can think about is how much we hurt. How we manage our pain is up to us. Pain. We anaesthetize...ride it out, embrace it, ignore it... And for some of us, the best way to manage pain is to just push through it.Pain. You just have to ride it out. Hope it goes away on its own. Hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions. No easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed. But sometimes, the pain gets to you when you least expect it. Hit's way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain. You just have to fight through because the truth is you can't out run it. And life always make more.E6 “Into you like a Train”In general... people can be categorized in one of two ways. Those who love surprises, and those who don't. I don't. I've never met a surgeon that enjoys a surprise, because, as surgeons we like to be in the know. We have to be in the know. Because when we aren't, people die and lawsuits happen. Am I rambling? I think I'm rambling. Ok, so my point actually ... and I do have one. Has nothing to do with surprises or death or lawsuits or even surgeons. My point is this: whoever said what you don't know can't hurt you was a complete and total moron. Because for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world.As surgeons, there are so many things we have to know. We have to know we have what it takes. We have to know how to take care of our patients. And how to take care of each other. Eventually we even have to figure out... how to take care of ourselves. As surgeons we have to be in the know. But as human beings, sometimes it's better to stay in the dark. Because in the dark, there maybe fear... ... but there's also hope.E8 “Let it Be”In the 8th grade, my English class had to read Romeo & Juliet. Then for extra credit, Mrs. Snyder made us act out all the parts. Sal Scafarillo was Romeo. As fate would have it, I was Juliet. All the other girls were jealous but I had a slightly different take. I told Mrs. Snyder that Juliet was an idiot. For starters, she falls for the one guy she knows she can't have. Then she blames fate for her own bad decision. Mrs. Snyder explained to me that when fate comes into play, choice sometimes goes out the window. At the ripe old age of 13, I was very clear. That love like life is about making choices. And fate has nothing to do with it. Everyone thinks it's so romantic. Romeo & Juliet. True love. How sad. If Juliet was stupid enough to fall for the enemy, drink a bottle of poison and go to sleep in a mausoleum ... ... she deserved whatever she got.Maybe Romeo & Juliet were fated to be together, but just for a while. And then their time passed. If they could've known that beforehand maybe it would've all been ok. I told Mrs. Snyder that when I was growing up I'd take fate into my own hands. I wouldn't let some guy drag me down. Mrs. Snyder said that I'd be lucky if I ever had that kind of passion with someone. And that if I did, we'd be together forever. Even now I believe for the most part love is about choices. It's about putting down the poison and the dagger and making your own happy ending ... most of the time. And that sometimes despite all your best choices and all your best intentions, fate wins anyway.E09: “Thanks for the memories”Gratitude, appreciation, giving thanks. No matter what words you use, it all means the same thing. Happy. We're supposed to be happy. Grateful for friends, family, happy just to be alive... Whether we like it or not.Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful is recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciate small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing ... ... is reason enough to celebrate.E10 “Much too much”When you were a kid, it was Halloween candy. You hid it from your parents and ate it until you got sick. In college it was the heady combo of youth, tequila and well you know... As a surgeon you take as much of the good as you can get... because it doesn't come around nearly as often as it should. Cause good things aren't always what they seem. Too much of anything, even love is not always a good thing.How do you know how much is too much? Too much, too soon. Too much information. Too much fun. Too much love. Too much to ask. And when is it all just too much to bear?E11 “Owner of a lonely heart”Forty years ago, The Beatles asked the world a simple question. They wanted to know where all the lonely people came from. My latest theory is that a great many of the lonely people come from hospitals. More precisely the surgical wings of hospitals. As surgeons we ignore our own needs so we can meet our patients' needs. We ignore our friends and families so we can save other people's friends and families. Which means that at the end of the day all we really have is ourselves. And nothing in this world can make you feel more alone than that.400 years ago another well known English guy had an opinion about being alone. John Donne. He thought we were never alone. Of course it was fancier when he said it. No man is an island entire unto himself. Boil down that island talk and he just meant that all anyone needs is someone to step in. And let us know we're not alone. And who's to say that someone can't have 4 legs. Someone to play with or run around with. Or just hang out.E12 “Grandma got run over by a reindeer”It's an urban myth that suicide rates spike at the holidays. Turns out, they actually go down. Experts think that people are less inclined to off themselves when surrounded by family. Ironically, that same family togetherness is thought to be the reason depression rates actually do spike at the holidays.There's an old proverb that says you can't choose your family. You take what the fates hand you... ...and like them or not, love them or not, understand them or not ... ...you cope. Then there's the school of thought that says the family you're born into is simply a starting point. They feed you and clothe you and take care of you until your ready to go out into the world. ...and find your tribe.E13 “Begin the begin”Fresh starts. Thanks to the calendar, they happen every year. Just set your watch to January. Our reward for surviving the holiday season is a new year. Bringing on the great tradition of New Year's resolutions. Put your past behind you and start over. It's hard to resist the chance at a new beginning. A chance to put the problems of last year to bed.Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? It's not a day on a calendar. Not a birthday, not a new year. It's an event, big or small, something that changes us. Ideally it gives us hope. A new way of living and looking at the world. Letting go of old habits, old memories. What's important is that we never stop believing, we can have a new beginning. But it's also important to remember that amid all the crap are a few things really worth holding on to.E14 “Tell me sweet little lies”As doctors we're trained to skeptical because our patients lie to us all the time. The rule is: every patient is a liar until proven honest. Lying is bad. Or so we're told. Constantly, from birth. Honesty is the best policy. The truth shall set you free. I chop down the cherry tree. Whatever. The fact is, lying is a necessity. We lie to ourselves because the truth, the truth freaking hurts.No matter how hard we try to ignore it or deny it. Eventually the lies fall away. Whether we like it or not. But here's the truth about the truth. It hurts. So we lie.E16: “It’s the end of the world”It's a look patients get in their eyes. There is a scent. The smell of death. Some kind of sixth sense. When the great beyond is headed for you, you feel it coming. What's the one thing you've always dreamed of doing before you die? E17 “As we know it”In hospitals they say you know. You know when you're going to die. Some doctors say it's a look patients get in their eyes. Some say there's a scent. The smell of death. Something. There's just some kind of sixth sense. When the great beyond is heading for you. You feel it coming. Whatever it is. It's creepy. Because if you know. What do you do about? Forget about the fact you're scared out of your mind. If you knew this was your last day on Earth, how would you want to spend it?(现在似乎流行这样的假设，在北美大学，流行”last lecture”)E18 “Yesterday”After careful consideration and many sleepless nights, here's what I've decided. There's no such thing as a grown up. We move on, we move out, we move away from our families and form our own. But the basic insecurities, the basic fears and all those old wounds just grow up with us. And just when we think that life and circumstance have forced us to truly, once and for all become an adult ... We get bigger, we get taller, we get older. But for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids. Running around the playground trying desperately to fit in.We whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark. We look for comfort where we can find it. And we hope. Against all logic. Against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope.E19 “ What have I done to deserve this”Ok so sometimes even the best of us make rash decisions. Bad decisions. Decisions we pretty much know we're gonna regret the moment, the minute, especially the morning after. I mean maybe not regret, regret because at least you know we put ourselves out there. But still ... something inside us decides to do a crazy thing. A thing we know that'll probably turn around and bite us in the ass. Yet, we do it anyway.What I'm saying is ... we reap what we sow. What comes around goes around. It's karma and any way you slice it ... ... karma sucks. Like I was saying ... ... payback's a bitch.One way or another, our karma, will leave us to face ourselves. We can look our karma in the eye or we can wait for it to sneak up on us from behind. One way or another, our karma will always find us. And the truth is as surgeons we have more chances than most to set the balance in our favor. No matter how hard we try, we can't escape our karma. It follows us home. I guess we can't really complain about karma. It's not unfair. It's not unexpected. It just ... evens the score. And even when we're about to do something we know will tempt karma to bite us in the ass ... ... well it goes without saying ... ...we do it anyway.E20 “ Band Aid covers the bullet hole”As doctors patients are always telling us how they would do our jobs. Just stitch me up, slap a band-aid on it and send me home. It's easy to suggest a quick solution when you don't know much about the problem. When you don't understand the underlying cause ... ... or just how deep the wound really is. The first step towards a real cure is to know exactly what the disease is to begin with. But that's not what people want to hear. We're supposed to forget the past that landed us here, ignore the future complications that might arise and go for the quick fix.As doctors, as friends, as human beings we all try to do the best we can. But the world is full of unexpected twists and turns. And just when you've gotten the lay of the land, the ground underneath you, shifts. And knocks you off your feet. If you're lucky, you end up with nothing more than a flesh wound. Something a band-aid will cover. But some wounds are deeper than they first appear and require more than just a quick fix. With some wounds, you have to rip off the band-aid, let them breathe and give them time to heal.E21 “Superstition”My college campus has a magic statue. It's a long-standing tradition for students to rub it's nose for good luck. My freshman roommate really believed in the statue's power... ...and insisted on visiting it to rub it's nose before every exam. Studying might have been a better idea. She flunked out her sophomore year. But the fact is we all have little superstitious things that we do. If it's not believing in magic statues, it's avoiding sidewalk cracks, or always putting out left shoe on first. Knock on wood. Step on a crack, break your mother's back. The last thing we want to do is offend the gods.Superstition lies in the space between what we can control... and what we can't. Find a penny, pick it up, and all day long you'll have good luck. No one wants to pass up a chance for good luck. But does saying it 33 times really help? Is anyone really listening? And if no one's listening, why do we bother doing those strange things at all? We rely on superstitions because we're smart enough to know we don't have all the answers. And that life works in mysterious ways. Don't diss the juju...from wherever it comes.E22 “ The name of the game”A good basketball game can have us all on the edge of our seats. Games are all about the glory, the pain and the play-by-play. And then there are the more solitary games. The games we each play all by ourselves. The social games, the mind games, we use them to pass the time. To make life more interesting. To distract us from what's really going on. There are those of us who love to play games. Any game. And there are those of us who love to play...a little too much.Life is not a spectator sport. Win, lose or draw...the game is in progress...whether we want it to be or not. So go ahead: argue with the refs, change the rules...cheat a little...take a break...and tend to your wounds. But play. Play hard. Play fast. Play loose and free. Play as if there's no tomorrow. Ok, so it's not whether you win or lose...it's how you play the game. Right?E23 “Blues for sister someone”The key to being a successful intern is what we give up. Sleep, friends, a normal life. We sacrifice it all for that one amazing moment. That moment when you can legally call yourself a surgeon. There are days that make the sacrifices seem worthwhile. And then there are the days where everything feels like a sacrifice. And then there are the sacrifices that you can't even figure out why you're making.A wise man once said, "You can have anything in life, if you will sacrifice everything else for it." What he meant is, nothing comes without a price. So before you go into battle, you better decide how much you're willing to lose. Too often, going after what feels good, means letting go of what you know is right. And letting someone in means abandoning the walls you've spent a lifetime building. Of course the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don't see coming. When we don't have time to come up with a strategy, to pick a side or measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us, and not the other way around, that's when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear.E24 “Damage Case”We all go through life like bulls in a china shop. A chip here, a crack there. Doing damage to ourselves. To other people. The problem is trying to figure out how to control the damage we have done. Or that's been done to us. Sometimes the damage catches us by surprise. Sometimes we think we can fix the damage. And sometimes the damage is something we can't even see.We're all damaged, it seems. Some of us more than others. We carry the damage with us from childhood. Then, as grown-ups, we give as good as we get. Ultimately, we all do damage. And then...we set about the business of fixing...whatever we can.E25 “17 seconds”In life, we are taught that there are seven deadly sins. We all know the big ones: Gluttony, pride, lust. But the sin you don't hear much about is anger. Maybe it's because we think anger's not that dangerous. That we can control it. My point is, maybe we don't give anger enough credit. Maybe it can be a lot more dangerous than we think. After all, when it comes to destructive behavior... ...it did make the top seven.So what makes anger different from the six other deadly sins? It's pretty simple really. You give in to a sin like envy or pride then you only hurt yourself. Try lust or coveting and you'll only hurt yourself, and probably one or two others. But anger...anger is the worst. The mother of all sins. Not only can anger drive you over the edge, when it does, you can take an awful lot of other people with you.E26 “Deterioration of the fight or flight response”Human beings need a lot of things to feel alive. We can't control it.Season 3E01 “Time has come today”In the OR, time loses all meaning. In the midst of sutures and saving lives, the clock ceases to matter. 15 minutes. 15 hours. Inside the OR, the best surgeons make time fly. Outside the OR however, time takes pleasure in kicking our asses. For even the strongest of us, it seems to play tricks. Slowing down, hovering....until it freezes, leaving us stuck in a moment, unable to move in one direction or the other.Time flies Time waits for no man. Time heals all wounds. All any of us wants is more time Time to stand up... time to grow up. Time to let go.E02 “I am a tree”At any moment, the brain has 14 billion neurons firing at a speed of 450 miles per hour. We don't have control over most of them. When we get a chill, goosebumps. When we get excited, adrenaline. The body naturally follows it's impulses, which I think is part of what makes it so hard for us to control ours. Of course, sometimes we have impulses we'd rather not control. That we later wish we had.The body is a slave to its impulses. But the thing that makes us human... Is what we can control. after the storm. After the rush. After the heat of the moment has passed. We can cool off and clean up the messes we've made. We can try to let go of what was. And then again...E03 “Sometimes a fantasy”Surgeons usually fantasize about wild and improbable surgeries. Someone collapses in a restaurant; we splice them open with a butter knife. Replace a valve with a hollowed-out stick of carrot. But every now and then, some other kind of fantasy slips in. Most of our fantasies dissolve when we wake. Banished to the back of our mind. But sometimes we're sure, if we try hard enough, we can live the dream.The fantasy is simple. Pleasure is good. And twice as much pleasure is better. That pain is bad. And no pain is better. But the reality is different. The reality is that pain is there to tell us something. And there's only so much pleasure we can take without getting a stomach ache. And maybe that's OK. Maybe some fantasies are only supposed to live in our dreams.E04 “What I am”At some point during surgical residency, most interns get a sense of who they are as doctors, and the kind of surgeons they're going to become If you ask them they'll tell you. They're going to be General surgeons. Orthopedic surgeons. Neurosurgeons. Distinctions that do more than describe their areas of expertise. They help define who they are. Because Outside the operating room, not only do most surgeons have no clue who they are, they're afraid to find out.E05 “Oh, the guilt”First, do no harm. As doctors we pledge to live by this oath. But harm happens. Then guilt happens, and there's no oath for how to deal with that.First, do no harm. Easier said than done. We can take all the oaths in the world but the fact is... most of us do harm all the time.Sometimes even when we're trying to help, we do more harm than good. And then the guilt rears its ugly head. What you do with that guilt is entirely up to you. We're left with a choice... Either you can let guilt thrown you back into the behavior that got you in trouble in the first place, or learn from the guilt, and do your best to move on.E06 “Let the angels commit”To make it... really make it as a surgeon, it takes major commitment. We have to be willing to pick up that scalpel that may or may not do more damage than good. It's all about being committed. Cause if we're not, we have no business picking up that scalpel in the first place.There are times when even the best of us have trouble with commitment, and we may be surprised at the commitments we're willing to let slip out of our grasp. Commitments are complicated. We may surprise ourselves by the commitments we're willing to make. True commitment, takes effort, and sacrifice. Which is why sometimes, we have to learn the hard way, to choose our commitments very carefully.E07 “Where the boys are”As surgeons we're trained to look for disease. Sometimes, the disease is easily detected. Most of the time, we need to go step by step. First, probing the surface, looking for any sign of trouble. A mole or a lesion, or an unwelcome lump. Most of the time, we can't tell what's wrong with somebody just by looking at them. After all, they can look perfectly fine on the outside, while their insides tell us a whole different story.Not all wounds are superficial. Most wounds run deeper than imagined. You can't see them with the naked eye. And then there are the wounds that take us by surprise. The trick to any wound or disease is to dig down deep and find the real source of the injury. And once you've found it... try like hell to heal that sucker.E08 “staring at the sun”Many people don't know that the human eye has a blind spot in its field of vision. There's a part of the world that we are literally blind to. The problem is, sometimes our blind spots shield us from things that really shouldn't be ignored. Sometimes our blind spots keep our lives bright and shiny.When it comes to our blind spots, maybe our brains aren't compensating. Maybe they're protecting us.E09 “From a whisper to a scream”As doctors, we know everybody's secrets. Their medical histories, sexual histories, confidential information that is as essential to a surgeon as a 10-blade. And every bit as dangerous. We keep secrets. We have to. But not all secrets can be kept.In some ways, betrayal is inevitable. When our bodies betray us, surgery is often the key to recovery. When we betray each other, the path to recovery is less clear. We do whatever it takes to rebuild the trust. And then there are some wounds that are so deep, so profound, that there's no way to repair what was lost. And when that happens, there's nothing left to do but wait.E10 “Don’t stand so close to me”At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance, and pretend not to care about each other...it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to. and once we've chosen those people we tend to stick close by. no matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping.E13 “Great Expectations”No one believes their life will turn out just kind of ok. We all think we're going to be great. And from the day we decide to become surgeons, we are filled with expectation. Expectations of the trails we will blaze, the people we will help, the difference we will make. Great expectations of who we will be, where we will go, and then we get there.We all think we're going to be great. And we feel robbed when our expectations aren't met. But sometimes our expectations sell us short. Sometimes, the expected pales in comparison to the unexpected. You gotta wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the unexpected is just what keeps us steady...standing...still. The expected is just the beginning. The unexpected is what changes our lives.E14 “wishing and hoping”As surgeons we live in a world of worst-case scenarios. We cut ourselves off from hoping for the best because too many times the best doesn't happen. But every now and then something extraordinary occurs ... ...and suddenly best-case scenarios seem possible. And every now and then...something amazing happens. And against our better judgment, we start to have hope.As doctors, we're trained to give our patients just the facts. But what are patients really want to know is. Will the pain ever go away? Will I feel better? Am I cured? What are patients really want to know is... ...is their hope. But inevitably there are times when you find yourself in the worst-case scenario. When the patient's body has betrayed them and all the science we have to offer has failed them. When the worst-case scenario comes true, clinging to hope is all we have left.E15 “ walk on water”Disappearances happen in science, disease can suddenly fade away. Tumors go missing. We open someone up to discover the cancer is gone. It's unexplained, it's rare, bit it happens. We call it misdiagnosis say we never saw it, any explanation but the truth. That life is full of vanishing acts. If something that we didn't know we had disappears, do we miss it?E16 “drowning on dry land”Like I said disappearances happen. Pains go phantom, blood stops running, and people fade away. There's more I have to say. So much more. But I've disappeared.E17 “some kind of miracle”There are medical miracles. Being worshippers at the alters of science we don't like to believe miracles exist, but they do. Things happen...we can't explain them, we can't control them, but they do happen. Miracles do happen in medicine. They happen every day just not always when we need them to happen.At the end of a day like this, a day when so many prayers are answered and so many aren't... We take our miracles where we find them. We reach across the gap and sometimes against all odds, against all logic, we touch.E18 “scars and souvenirs”People have scars in all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories... ...diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our old wounds heal leaving nothing behind but a scar, but some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere... ...and though the cuts long gone... ...the pain still lingers.What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful... :...or old wounds that should have healed years ago and never did. Maybe our old wounds teach us something... ...they remind us of where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Something's we just have to learn over and over and over again.E19 “my favorite mistake”Surgeons always have a plan, where to cut, where to clamp, where to stitch. But even with the best plans, complications can arise, things can arise and suddenly you're caught with your pants down.The thing about plans is...they don't take into account the unexpected. So, when we're thrown a curve ball, whether it's in the OR, or in life. We have to improvise. Of course, some of us are better at it than others. Some of us just have to move on to Plan B and make the best of it. And sometimes... ...what we want... ...is exactly... ...what we need. But sometimes... Sometimes what we need is a new plan.E20 “time after time”A patient's history is as important as their symptoms. It's what helps us decide if heartburn's a heart attack, if a headache's a tumor. Sometimes patients will try to rewrite their own histories. They'll claim they don't smoke or forget to mention certain drugs, which in surgery can be the kiss of death. We can ignore it all we want. But our history, eventually, always comes back to haunt us.Some people believe that without history our lives amount to nothing. At some point we all have to choose. Do we fall back on what we know... Or do we step forward to something new. It's hard not to be haunted by our past. Our history is what shapes us, what guides us. Our history resurfaces time after time after time. So we have to remember sometimes the most important history is the history we're making today.E21 “Desire”As interns we know what we want...to become surgeons. And will do anything to get there... Suffer through killer exams, endure 100-hour weeks, stand for hours on end operating rooms. You name it we'll do it. The tough part though is reconciling this huge thing we want, to be surgeons, with everything else we want.To often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken; it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be...(Addison pauses in front of the hospital)...the people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want.E22 “The other side of the life”The dream is this: that we'll finally be happy when we reach our goals... ...find the guy, finish our internship. That's the dream; then we get there and if we're human, we immediately start dreaming of something else. Because if this is the dream then we'd like to wake up... ...now please.At some point, maybe we accept that the dream has become a nightmare. We tell ourselves the reality is better. We convince ourselves it's better that we never dream at all. But the strongest of us, the most determined of us, we hold on to the dream. Or we find ourselves faced with a fresh dream we never considered. We awake to find ourselves...Against all odds...Feeling hopeful. And if we're lucky, we realize...In the face of everything, in the face of life...The true dream...Is being able to dream at all.E23 “Testing”A surgeon's education never ends. Every patient, every symptom, every operation...is a test, a chance for us to demonstrate how much we know...and how much more we have to learn.

这阵子天昏地暗的看《实习医生格蕾》，医生的剧集总归是好看的。

旧有《急诊室的故事》（Emergency），港有《妙手仁心》。

《Grey's Anatomy》讲述五个医学院刚毕业的学生进入医院当实习医生然后竞争成为正式医生的事儿。

重要的是，每个角色我都喜欢。

Meredith GREY 实习医生，绝对的主角。

总觉得扮演她的演员有点老，突出的皱纹和耷拉的皮肤，看着着实不像一个fresh. Meredith和Derek的感情纠缠绵延至今已经四季，据称一段感情的最高境界是互相开始犯贱。

我对你好的时候，你选择离开，你回来了，我又开始搭架子了。

Meredith有很多缺点，她勤奋聪明但是不够坚强，她酗酒滥交但追求真爱。

她爱的男人结婚了，这是最不幸的事情，并且Derek最初也没有告诉她，所以诚实的说，所谓婚外恋不是她的错，而且她的前男友和老婆天天晃在她周围，换了谁也许都承受不了。

不过好在，她是主角，她是赢得Derek真心的那个女人，并且Derek在任何场合也从来都不掩饰对她的喜欢。

可Meredith朋友虽多却无比孤独，一个良好的环境逼迫Mere一直、应该、并须优秀的活着，同时善良的活着，但当她有一次机会可以堂而皇之的死去的时候，她毫不犹豫的选择去死。

你，或者我，多多少少都是Meredith吧。

Derek SHERPERD脑外科主治医生，Meredith的男朋友，Addison的Husband。

这演员看着真是眼熟，有点像年轻一点的Sean Penn，又有一点像老一点的Orlando Bloom，他是Mr. McDreamy，他是挑起感情战争的罪魁祸首，但我还是喜欢他的，他那迷人的笑容。

演员Patrick Dempsey在《情归阿拉巴马》中曾与Reese Witherspoon精彩演出。

Cristina YANG实习医生，韩国后裔。

她秉承道德基础上对医学知识和实践的不择手段让人肃然起敬。

她和Doctor Burke是剧中唯一一段毫无第三者的你情我愿relationship。

可惜啊，这段关系被饰演Burke的那黑人演员一句歧视性的语言被迫嘎然中止。

她是Meredith最好的朋友，她和Meredith之所以能够惺惺相惜的原因是她们同样的优秀并且同样的孤独。

但Cristina是充满希望的，Meredith是充满绝望的，所以Cristina是强大的，Mere是弱小的。

这世上，我们从来都偏爱前者。

Preston BURKE心外科主治医生。

医术高超，感情专一，从里到外自信干净的男人，可惜啊，不幸失业了。

又一段主治医生和实习医生的爱恋，基本都要相差十岁吧，老男人勾引小女人呗。

Miranda BAILEY住院医生，五个实习医生的领导者。

至今认为她是剧中最出色的演员，最可爱的角色。

每当她撅着硕大的屁股一摇一摆带领五个实习生在医院里东闯西荡，心里一定有最灿烂的笑容。

她是实习医生和主治医生的中坚力量。

Isabol STEVENS实习医生，大家都叫她Izzie。

她是剧中最Emotional的角色，她喜欢没人喜欢的Alex，她爱上要换心脏的病人Danny，她家境贫寒，却有一个已经无从知晓的11岁的女儿，她靠身体拍杂志照片读完医学院。

新进艾美奖最佳女配配，《一夜肚大》里也有她精彩出演。

Addison Montgomery SHEPHERD妇产科主治医生，Derek的前妻。

她穿着一步裙踏着高跟鞋，纤细修长小腿一站的样子太迷人了。

红发，红唇，她一定是非常惹人爱的。

Derek不爱她了，幸好还有爱她的Mark，Mr.McSteamy。

George O`MALLEY实习医生。

要是他长得再帅一点，那么会有更多的人喜欢这样善良的他，会有更多的人想Meredith有眼无珠。

可惜他怎么都像傻得可爱的大男孩，这就是为什么他只能有几个护士，而Alex可以有Izzie。

第一次对黑人开始有感觉。

看到他做手术时带的花头巾，很可爱。

喜欢christina没有表情的脸。

反正看这两个人最有感觉后来开始喜欢Callie和ADDISON。

后来每个人都变成很爱。

最近回家都看格蕾，几乎每次都看到落泪，太多感人的故事。

最近看的几个，1.有患上严重肺部呼吸道疾病的一对，男孩终于等到了移植新肺的机会，但被医生发现他女朋友也有同样疾病而这种病在病友之间会互相传染并且加重病情。

医生坚持不肯换肺除非他们分开。

最后他们分开，女孩坐在医院门外等到男孩的手术成功。

小grey对她说的那段话让我很感动，个人觉得这算是她在剧中台词最好的部分，没有之一。

It always feel like that, there is only one person in this world to love. And then you find somebody else, and it just seems crazy that you were ever worried in the first place.2.有一对老夫妇，妻子被查出绝症将不久于人世。

医生不忍心告诉老太太就跟她丈夫先说了。

丈夫说，你能不能不要告诉她，她知道了以后肯定会很伤心很害怕的。

我们还要去威尼斯呢，因为据说在叹息桥下牵手，下辈子还能在一起。

医生感动的答应了。

但是医院的规定是告诉病人病情是医生的职责。

于是被迫医生只能把病情如实告诉了老太太。

她出乎意料地平静，说，你还没告诉我丈夫吧，你能不能不要告诉他，我们还要去威尼斯呢。

因为据说在叹息桥下牵手，下辈子就还能在一起。。

3.这一集可能很多人都觉得不好看，Arizona申请到了儿童基金去非洲，Torres不想去但是为了维持两人的关系也决定跟她一起去。

她一直在给自己做心理建设说服自己，一直说去那儿也很好，没那么多病人我能更好地专注研究。

但是在机场正当她又一次自我安慰的时候，Arizona生气地说你的坏情绪破坏了我的心情我的旅行我不需要你陪我去非洲我们结束了。

Torres哭的很伤心用了很多办法才让自己心情变好，却有一天Arizona出现在门口对她说我不能离开你。

Torres听完就关上了门。

原来，爱不是你回来，我就可以继续的。

结束了就是结束了。

这只是一个小插曲，却让我哭到不能自已。

4.一个妇人在过去的七年每年同一天都会因为心脏病进医院，医生问她是不是那天曾发生过什么特别的事情。

她摇头说没有，丈夫想了想说，第一次病发正好是他们邻居Ted突然病发去世。

妇人笑说，可是我们和他也不是很熟，说这句话时她黯然地转过了头。

之后医生单独找了这个妇人问她Ted应该不仅是一个不太熟的邻居吧？

妇人哭着说，二十七年，我爱上了隔壁的男人，他也爱我，可是七年前他就这么死了。

医生说，所以你的心脏就每年这个时候停止跳动来纪念他。

女人很难过，问医生有什么办法可以帮她。

医生说，我多希望我有办法，可惜真的没有。

原来我会在某一天莫名其妙的心情不好，真的是有原因的。

七季已经快看完了，最大的感触之一就是真心觉得只有在美国这样的国家，才会有那么多人会要求除了生存以外的其他权利，比如死亡面前也不会放弃自己的爱好，在可以保留双腿的情况下冒生命危险也绝不截肢，比如为了同性结婚而抗争比如不愿意忍受痛苦选择安乐死。

Seattle Grace可能是世界上最悲惨的医院，遇过持枪杀手，有过定时炸弹，被水淹过，但也一定是世界上最充满爱的医院。

Grey's 的第七集里，被那对老夫妻感动得哭了出来。

年过半百的老人握着一起走过了半生的人同样苍老的手，互相笑着说“my love, goodbye.”在每一次手术前告别，然后在手术结束后，再次地，say hello。

因为从第一次就知道，每一次的告别都可能成为永别。

这并不是玩笑。

所以用着虔诚深情的表情和爱一次次做最后的仪式。

假以你这一次离开，也不是带着遗憾分离。

是不是这样子。

于是他们说，这才是真正的相濡以沫。

然而感动我的，却不只是这样子。

或许在等待的男人心里，从来没有真正设想和接受过那一种无法再相见的可能性。

于是理所当然地等待着同爱人说你好的时间，然而这一次的告别，却真的成为了永别。

那个苍老的、失了平静的声音在说，不要离开我。

一遍一遍。

那双老迈的、不肯停下手，执著地在早已经没了心跳的心脏上反复徒劳的动作。

只要你醒来。

上天没有赐予一点奇迹的怜悯，那个惶然无措的老人，在黄昏黑夜里，始终没有等到白昼。

那么，到底是要怎样的深情切意，才能在十年、二十年、三十年、四十年、五十年……这样漫长的时间里，一次次将无情的光阴打败。

在这个寡情而薄幸的现实里。

于是那些相濡以沫的事情，在心里渐渐筑成了一座固若金汤的城堡，那叫做……奇迹吧。

之于找寻。

多少人终其一生都在找寻。

在这样烟雾缭绕的世界里，是不是有着那样的存在，值得我们葬掉半生也要去等待。

Watched GA (Grey's Anatomy) pilot again. I can't explain why I like this show so much. Maybe it attracted me of the unique life style as a surgeon? Great pressure with tough mentors, strong competition, long working hours, and unpredictable troubles involving taking or saving lives. Those are fresh and exciting to learn as a bystander. As an intern, unfortunately, it would be horrifying to experience.At the end of pilot, Meredith said 'I can't think of any reason why I wannt to be a surgeon. But I can think of a thousand reasons why I should quit. They make it hard on purpose. There are lives in our hands. There comes a moment when it's more than just a game. And you either take that step forward, or turn around and walk away. I could quit but here's the thing, I love the playing field'. Suddenly, I realized why I love this show, especially the part of the anatomy of herself. She keeps on questioning herself, and fears of not being good enough. She is just like me. Watching how she survives is just like watching myself. And finally, I figured out why I love my playing field, that I just wanna prove I can do it.

GA在实习医生紧张的生活中加入了幽默的元素和人性的分析。

我觉得第二季是到目前最出色的，尤其是火车车祸，炸弹，大结局这几集，都无可挑剔。

如果原本有看了第一季觉得一般的朋友，只要看了这几集肯定无法忘怀。

GA的人物、对白和配乐都很出色，唯一希望就是第三季少一些琼瑶戏，多一些出彩的病例。

希望“越狱”热潮中，GA能被更多人所识货。

GA专题：http://www.meijumi.com/default.asp?cat=16